Tonight is what it means to be young
I went out with a dork (probably the only word I could think of at this point in time that best describes her) named Esther just the other night. My intention was to have some sort of ice breaking session since we've never really talked in real life before despite knowing each other for quite a while. Exchanging 5 one worded sentences does not make a conversation but that was exactly what we did 5 years ago.
Before I proceed, I would like to talk a bit about myself.
Jerry's Theory: As long as there is a need to know someone new, he'd automatically take a few precautions, a dab of sensitivity and a bit of wit before expressing his thoughts.
In short, I'd never fail to put up my defenses before knowing the necessary steps to take when it comes to dealing with anyone. Hence, expect me to put up a facade until I get to know you a little better.
I am a person filled with countless insecurities. I can get very bothered over the smallest details. If I don't say it, it doesn't indicate that I'm not thinking about it. In order to make things go your way, you'd have to take charge of the situation. In this case, crafting a conversation to your advantage would be an ideal option.
Jerry' Theory: Don't want to hear it? Don't talk about it!
However, I should have expected the unexpected. If I were to use one word to describe this little girl, it would be "tactless". She took all the impressions that I ever had of her & mercilessly fed them to the unforgiving waves of the sea while strolling along the side. What ever happened to practicing some form of restraint?
It looks like it's going to take more time to get to know such a person. It takes 2 hands to clap but it takes even more patience to deal with the noise being produced. Oh well, it's times like these when you get reminded of Bruce Lee's wise words.
Be water, my friend.
No matter what I said, I always felt as if she was the one in control. It's amazing how she was able to answer me in a way that I could never think of. Needless to say, it's obviously something that I don't like to hear. That was the main reason why I shoved her into my "out of the norm" category of friends. It's always good to have a few interesting people in your life to help you see things in a different light.
Jerry's Theory: When I hear something that I could never think of (despite being good or bad), I'd be impressed.
I apply this to everything.
The last person who was able to do such a thing almost flawlessly was none other than Yvonne; someone whom I've never really understood no matter how much time has passed. Even though I was always the one asking questions, she'd somehow manage to steer the conversation off to something irrelevant; to the point where I'm always caught off guard. That being said, it is no wonder that she is able to know me well.
It's not a bad thing, it really isn't. It forces me do the number one thing that I hate to do; think.
That was the reason why I hung out with her so often. I've always thought that spending time with people could make you understand them little by little but.................
I've
never
felt
so
wrong
before.
In a span of 3 hours, Esther said 1 sentence that could shake the foundations of most of the conclusions that I've came up with over the years.
Although I'm quite sure she didn't put much thought into it, she displayed the true meaning of "minimum effort, maximum results". That's probably the reason why people call her "The Great". Everything just seems to make sense.
She said...
Esther: Jerry you ****er, 你不了解女人的心
I was telling her about some girl whom I used to like. I went on explaining the steps I took & the shit that followed after that. My only intention was to tell a story, nothing more.
She analysed the situation casually & explained things from her point of view (a girls point of view to be precise). Although she wasn't being very detailed, her points were valid & they hit me like an instant knockout coming from Mike Tyson. She claimed that being nice isn't the way to a girl's heart. Apparently, that is just not how the rules of attraction are written.
I was irritated by her "你不了解女人的心" statement. It sounded some random comment that popped out of nowhere just for the sole purpose of irritating the person on the receiving end. However, since it was supposed to be a "happy" occasion, I decided not to be a killjoy & ditched the tables & chairs that I've initially prepared for a heated argument.
Besides, I'd only do drastic things when I get really pissed.
Women to me are fascinating creatures. They can never be compared to men. They think way too differently. As the saying goes, opposites attract. I spend a great deal of my time trying to understand them. In my opinion, understanding them means knowing how to deal with their ever changing mood swings & fickleness.
It is something that I'm proud of because learning all that was not an easy (nor cheap) process at all. I take pride in it & I sincerely believed that I could know exactly what a lady is thinking just by analysing a situation in a woman's perspective.
Then I realised, no matter how much I know about them, I could never understand how their brains work. One simple reason, I'm not a girl.
I thought about the things I did previously. Why didn't things work out the way I wanted them to? It made clear sense after I sat down & thought about how those words relate to my past experiences.
I'm not obligated to do such a thing. Yet is one of those things where I can't find an answer to satisfy myself. I am an over-thinker unfortunately.
My ex-girlfriend Christelle liked me because she felt that I was afungi fun guy to hang out with. I didn't like her at first. Before we were together, I was making fun of her like no one's business. She was younger compared to me & any girl that fits the bill is selfishly labeled my default little sister. Since I've always harboured the thought that little sisters are people you play with, I don't see why I shouldn't be (I do have a little sister/daughter complex if you haven't noticed).
For the record if I really liked someone, I'd treat her really nice; to the point where it becomes obvious even to the oblivious. That being said, I've only confessed once in all my 23 years. Not going to do that again any time soon though (because no one has been able to convince me that girls are NOT irritating).
That one moment required a shitload of balls to happen. I can't even go up to a girl & ask her for her height let alone confessing any form of love I have for her.
Making fun of people has never been my way of expressing love. It totally made sense why some girls keep hounding me despite the fact that I treat them worse than shit. In all honesty, if I make fun of you, it simply means that I want to entertain myself at your expense, that's all!
We got together before I entered the army. At that point in time, I lived without a care in the world because I knew I wouldn't have to worry about finding a job or studying for the next 2 years.
Things were good for a while. The relationship thrived on me dealing with her personal issues. They were a pain in the arse but since I had all the time in the world & I knew that I was doing a good deed, why not? Naturally, after knowing her a little better, I liked her even more. Hence the big change in attitude towards her.
Before the breakup, she would ask me things like why wasn't I the guy she once knew, why wasn't I the guy who made her laugh all the time. To me, I thought she was expressing signs of boredom with the relationship. It's not because I don't want to, I just can't be goofing around when I'm worried about your current situation. If she couldn't think of it in a mature aspect, I think that is where the discussion ends.
To her, she was probably trying to hint something. I didn't think about it this way before I was aware of the whole "你不了解女人的心" thing. We broke up due to other underlying issues though.
This clearly shows that I know NOTHING about a girl's heart. NOTHING AT ALL!! I have to be "educated" by an 18 year old girl. WTH?! My ego is at stake. I need to ask a few more friends for a 2nd opinions before arriving to a solid conclusion regarding this issue. Expect follow up entry.
Girls play wicked games on guys. I guess I've no choice but to burn my encyclopedia on girls & rewrite a new one from scratch.
Before I proceed, I would like to talk a bit about myself.
Jerry's Theory: As long as there is a need to know someone new, he'd automatically take a few precautions, a dab of sensitivity and a bit of wit before expressing his thoughts.
In short, I'd never fail to put up my defenses before knowing the necessary steps to take when it comes to dealing with anyone. Hence, expect me to put up a facade until I get to know you a little better.
I am a person filled with countless insecurities. I can get very bothered over the smallest details. If I don't say it, it doesn't indicate that I'm not thinking about it. In order to make things go your way, you'd have to take charge of the situation. In this case, crafting a conversation to your advantage would be an ideal option.
Jerry' Theory: Don't want to hear it? Don't talk about it!
However, I should have expected the unexpected. If I were to use one word to describe this little girl, it would be "tactless". She took all the impressions that I ever had of her & mercilessly fed them to the unforgiving waves of the sea while strolling along the side. What ever happened to practicing some form of restraint?
It looks like it's going to take more time to get to know such a person. It takes 2 hands to clap but it takes even more patience to deal with the noise being produced. Oh well, it's times like these when you get reminded of Bruce Lee's wise words.
Be water, my friend.
No matter what I said, I always felt as if she was the one in control. It's amazing how she was able to answer me in a way that I could never think of. Needless to say, it's obviously something that I don't like to hear. That was the main reason why I shoved her into my "out of the norm" category of friends. It's always good to have a few interesting people in your life to help you see things in a different light.
Jerry's Theory: When I hear something that I could never think of (despite being good or bad), I'd be impressed.
I apply this to everything.
The last person who was able to do such a thing almost flawlessly was none other than Yvonne; someone whom I've never really understood no matter how much time has passed. Even though I was always the one asking questions, she'd somehow manage to steer the conversation off to something irrelevant; to the point where I'm always caught off guard. That being said, it is no wonder that she is able to know me well.
It's not a bad thing, it really isn't. It forces me do the number one thing that I hate to do; think.
That was the reason why I hung out with her so often. I've always thought that spending time with people could make you understand them little by little but.................
I've
never
felt
so
wrong
before.
In a span of 3 hours, Esther said 1 sentence that could shake the foundations of most of the conclusions that I've came up with over the years.
Although I'm quite sure she didn't put much thought into it, she displayed the true meaning of "minimum effort, maximum results". That's probably the reason why people call her "The Great". Everything just seems to make sense.
She said...
Esther: Jerry you ****er, 你不了解女人的心
I was telling her about some girl whom I used to like. I went on explaining the steps I took & the shit that followed after that. My only intention was to tell a story, nothing more.
She analysed the situation casually & explained things from her point of view (a girls point of view to be precise). Although she wasn't being very detailed, her points were valid & they hit me like an instant knockout coming from Mike Tyson. She claimed that being nice isn't the way to a girl's heart. Apparently, that is just not how the rules of attraction are written.
I was irritated by her "你不了解女人的心" statement. It sounded some random comment that popped out of nowhere just for the sole purpose of irritating the person on the receiving end. However, since it was supposed to be a "happy" occasion, I decided not to be a killjoy & ditched the tables & chairs that I've initially prepared for a heated argument.
Besides, I'd only do drastic things when I get really pissed.
Women to me are fascinating creatures. They can never be compared to men. They think way too differently. As the saying goes, opposites attract. I spend a great deal of my time trying to understand them. In my opinion, understanding them means knowing how to deal with their ever changing mood swings & fickleness.
It is something that I'm proud of because learning all that was not an easy (nor cheap) process at all. I take pride in it & I sincerely believed that I could know exactly what a lady is thinking just by analysing a situation in a woman's perspective.
Then I realised, no matter how much I know about them, I could never understand how their brains work. One simple reason, I'm not a girl.
I thought about the things I did previously. Why didn't things work out the way I wanted them to? It made clear sense after I sat down & thought about how those words relate to my past experiences.
I'm not obligated to do such a thing. Yet is one of those things where I can't find an answer to satisfy myself. I am an over-thinker unfortunately.
My ex-girlfriend Christelle liked me because she felt that I was a
For the record if I really liked someone, I'd treat her really nice; to the point where it becomes obvious even to the oblivious. That being said, I've only confessed once in all my 23 years. Not going to do that again any time soon though (because no one has been able to convince me that girls are NOT irritating).
That one moment required a shitload of balls to happen. I can't even go up to a girl & ask her for her height let alone confessing any form of love I have for her.
Making fun of people has never been my way of expressing love. It totally made sense why some girls keep hounding me despite the fact that I treat them worse than shit. In all honesty, if I make fun of you, it simply means that I want to entertain myself at your expense, that's all!
We got together before I entered the army. At that point in time, I lived without a care in the world because I knew I wouldn't have to worry about finding a job or studying for the next 2 years.
Things were good for a while. The relationship thrived on me dealing with her personal issues. They were a pain in the arse but since I had all the time in the world & I knew that I was doing a good deed, why not? Naturally, after knowing her a little better, I liked her even more. Hence the big change in attitude towards her.
Before the breakup, she would ask me things like why wasn't I the guy she once knew, why wasn't I the guy who made her laugh all the time. To me, I thought she was expressing signs of boredom with the relationship. It's not because I don't want to, I just can't be goofing around when I'm worried about your current situation. If she couldn't think of it in a mature aspect, I think that is where the discussion ends.
To her, she was probably trying to hint something. I didn't think about it this way before I was aware of the whole "你不了解女人的心" thing. We broke up due to other underlying issues though.
This clearly shows that I know NOTHING about a girl's heart. NOTHING AT ALL!! I have to be "educated" by an 18 year old girl. WTH?! My ego is at stake. I need to ask a few more friends for a 2nd opinions before arriving to a solid conclusion regarding this issue. Expect follow up entry.
Girls play wicked games on guys. I guess I've no choice but to burn my encyclopedia on girls & rewrite a new one from scratch.
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